From the moment I saw those two lines on the pregnancy tests, I spent the majority of my two pregnancies (in 2013 and 2015) thinking about that little person growing inside of me. I tracked their development through an app on my phone and attended my antenatal appointments, each one with a sense of excitement as I looked forward to welcoming them into the world.
I become obsessed with trying to find everything I could about active birthing and read up on positive birth stories. I attended antenatal classes through the Daisy Foundation and loved that special time each week to be with my growing bump and think positively about how to have an active birth and be empowered through the birthing process.
I’ve had two water births – one in hospital in a low risk unit and the other at home. Both times I was able to use the tools and techniques I’d learnt about and had two very life-affirming experiences.
But did I ever stop to think about what life would be like once my precious baby was finally in my arms? Did I think about the shift in identity from Grace to Grace the Mother? I don’t think I really did. Does anyone? We’re so fixated for preparing for labour that we rarely spare a thought as to how this whole process of becoming a mother can change who you are or how you feel about yourself.
We also live in a society whereby people are much more likely to live far away from their family networks. This means that often women are left without that ‘village’ of family members who are able to share their wisdom and guidance. Mothers are also often juggling many plates – raising children, working, domestic life, etc and rarely prioritise themselves as worthy of ‘self care’.
I want to help other women on their journey into motherhood. This corner of the internet is my space to explore these notions. I’m going to share my musings on motherhood and my experiences of having two babies and how I found it all. I want to be a support for women in that precious fourth trimester, which is the first 12 weeks of a baby's life outside of the womb. I want to provide a space for women to come together and really focus on themselves and their identities as mothers.